Bleak.

Sometimes a mistake in business will cost you a fortune but a mistake in life cost you everything.

I have lost my everything. The reason for me to smile when I wake up, the reason for me to pull through all the hardship, the reason for me to look forward, the reason to work hard, the reason to be positive, the reason to be great.

It will take months, maybe years for me to forget and hopefully forgive myself. 

20.06.2020

我很累了，心身都累了

放不下也忘不了

时间

heavy thoughts

Just came back from Malacca with my col friends, memorable!

During the trip I sit on the bus, I start to think about past, present , future.

I know it sounds creepy, but things really start to flashback as I whiz through the streets.

Im not contented with my current situation now, 1 month holiday but wasting time still.

6 months more another path will be opened for me, it seems that clueless is the saddest thing now.

^_^ but this year I grown alot thanks to someone really, I understand something.

What will happen after 10,20,30 years... who know eh?

一切已成了定局

一切已成了定局 , I know this day will come somehow but I bid you luck.

Somehow, its just a dream, like a delusion that shouldn't be happening at all.

I am too greedy, my wish had been granted I should't expect more than that.

There are still boundaries between us, unreachable isn't it just hope time can dwindle em'

My every promise still stay strong.

when you need someone to cuddle on,

when you need a hand of help,

when you feel lost and down,

It is a promise, it will always be...

mood is 0%

Just got my bb should be a happy thing, and *poof* and *poof* something happen, I don't want mention it because it hurts me so badly. Been so long in my life is the 1st time I am moodless till like this, because of some unreachable fictional thing you can procrastinate everything, every single thing . Sometimes I thought why I must return the favor when you didn't actually do to me huh..?

Anyway I love nelly song ''Just a dream '' ..perfectly suit me.

Hope this incidence will step out my mind because I want study soon, As chemistry is approaching.

Much love and god bless.

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t_t

Walao...eyes power increase from 250 to 300, another from 0 to 100. Getting a pair of contact lens soon , hope my eyes power won't increase anymore further !!!!

xD

Been ages since I blogged, abit moody this few days decided to release all my craps here. So when I left this blog is before I go national service, 10 months ago. Plkn was an awesome trip, i miss every single friend from sabah sarawak.

Many interesting things happen during back there. We fight, we play, we laugh. During ns is like at night malay and chinese will start kp-ing each other, then got 1 time electric short circuit, and wow we had a pillow fight. Me of cos take a pillow simply whack people , then we got detention wearing full celoreng for weekend xD hell yeah fun. I also tried american football in NS, lol funny shit is like a massacre , everyone banging each other! imagine 50 madbull in a field running zig zag in a field . Ns i also smoked once, i mean it only one breathe and I won't ever smoke again in my whole life. Very chocking and not nice the feeling, feel like vomit after smoke.

Now I am back, lost a couple of weight. I am delighted and I must thank you to 3 people in NS, sheng quan, hung yee and wei lun. Of course thanks to plkn teacher for being such an ass calling me to run at 6am and rowcall every single day. Plkn food sux to the maximum yeah! Sometime I feel awkward, last time my aunt is like '' eh you should eat lesser, not good leh so fat''. Now is ''eh li bo jiak peng ar, an zua ani san liao?'' . Plus all the clothes in my wardrobe doesn't fit anymore , is like the biggest loser roflmao.

Then , I enrolled to inti, boring college don't ever enroll in inti. Talk about my class more boring, see also sien compared to our secondary life is like heaven and hell. My class in inti is like heaven they are like angels all so quiet, I just need 1 more pillow to make myself into hibernation. Beginning still got wei heng and si zhao, after that all go matriks..den straight sien at class. Good thing still got yao and hong yun, still gt jascin to talk in class if not I think i sure become a rotten pig trolling around inti already lol.

Frankly no idea why take A level in inti, future seems so dim right now in sense of why the fark take science when I am going for law in degree. Yea...i saw a few of my friends did quite well in their sem exam like getting all AAA, while I get like BBC , suddenly I feel like im not on par with them anymore, fuck it totally what I miss'd out neither is those fucking reference book nor the extra 3 months is the fucking attitude of mine towards study. I feel like no point studying anymore because what we study now is not going to be applied next time, seriously are you going to fucking measure a cell length when you are eating, working, sleeping or shitting?So ya, screw you A level I am not studying to gain knowledge , I am just studying to get a grade to enter the uni i want. If they are being more supportive and don't keep insist me to study something I am not interested I already not at A level but doing foundation in computer sc.

Never mind after this As then half year more can leave subang finally.

Talk about subang, subang is a place filled with vanity. College and school is a total different story you can see how vain some people are, peeps in college is so different . Look at how they wear, how they talk , how they act, how they think is always a great past time in college. Anyway they pay who cares anyway. But subang has a remarkable scene to see everyday, ever see a student driving lambo to college? Ya, welcome to subang =[ and my dream car audii is easily seen at here, how i hope im the owner one day =)The saddest part is now my next paper is 2 weeks onward from now, that means I still need to wait 2 more weeks until I can see you. What pathetic is the guilt creeping in my heart every single day since the empty promise, how pathetic can this be , is my fault... ok i won't whine no more, good luk to all my friends in As, gayao.....i believe everyone can do it ryte?

haiz...last post...don't want to blog liao so mafan...won't make new picture at the moment...deleted my sakray...now i only go facebook...so ya bb....closed .

The fallen of an angel.

MJ dead! OMG for this sudden news...his a really awesome guy if you watch he dances ''Billie Jean'' you would know. R.I.P Michael jackson.

I made this as a tribute for 5S2 ok...? Since we don't have much........of these :)
Maybe I will compose a music video of 5S2 next time, if you guys can send me all your picture haha...July-free-mode ( bcoz deleted half of my games on PC, 70% time suddenly come out donno do what)

So, I make this for py and ck
SOMEHOW, GAY ISSUES...on behalf of that I made these too , actually is mimicking an advertisement de....but =/ watever xD they can't suee me
So...moonlite actually requested one....so I also made 1 haha

So much of my gallery...more actually but -_- lazy upload all haha~

abc123!@#$%

Ok...super bored... so am posting something, even though I know like 0.5 people/month visit this blog now. So ok, lets start from the whining....bad results, weak determination...aikz!!

Trial is coming soon...old saying, time flies. Omg yes it does, is already end of JUNE. August is going to be a whoooping month for all of us, good luck guys. I am still confuse about my future path, is really ambiguous. ( Talk about ambiguous reminds me about add math triangle measurement shty!) Really hope I can improve my add maths, is really crappy.

As far as exam concerns, I really flunked this time. I played dota during exam!WTF totally...omfg. I guess I need to study hard this 2 months....really especially chemistry and add math. Other subject I am quite confident to get 'A' as long I don't get influence by someone like Judas and Frozfire2 ( py ). But, hell I posted this after I play a round dota with them, ahh GOD!!!

K, I am going so total random, so I am going randomly post random picture that I composed during these low-tide days (results). These pictures may talk long time to load, I set it to highest resolution, but whatever is not nice anyway. Photoshop ----->
this 1...ummm lol karwei's name on it XD weee

I made this for apple...for whatever reason
Quite nice eh ~ smoking cool...

Btw, I posted this post to advise some of my friends to quit maplestory. Like shadowchaos aka boon kiat to quit maplestory because is total wastage of time.

Omg...another update ( sacred )

OMG LOOKS LIKE I GOTTTA UPDATE THIS BLOG AGAA-IN. ( Struggling )

Okay, now 5S2 should have their own class song too.
I kena kai chern zua lo ( time for some ''ss'' backstabbing )



They are like so enthusiastic(Kaicern and Weiyang) , so at least we should ''pi'' some seh out please.

This is the 5S3 class song ( piano version ) really nice...because it is made solely for their class through all the hassles, from kai chern.

http://www.mediafire.com/?mdn1alqhyib ( 5S3 class song )

But the class song is mono sound and not to mention the loud echo of the background.


This is the clan '' I M P E R M E A B L E '' de situation dedicated to....whatever geez


HUHUHU NICE I GOT NEW POST ALREADY THATS REALLY IMPRESSIVE *.* kicks next update = next year weeeeeee

Checking ...

Live Links : 0/0

Impermeable

Hah so I made a clan at garena...
And I made this solely for my clan only, is the clan logo xD

Even though I know the clan name sucks and I kena them suan dao 9 9 but nvm lar....haha.

And this is the .gif for our clan xD I know is coarse but w/e~~


Enjoy bye bye

lol cb chemistry

Lol seriously because I gave up my chemistry so I got this extra time to whine .
I expect a B4 for chemistry xD naawwww.
RIP for the 1st time for chemistry. Chap 8 is so bloody hard ......
Chap 9 , carbon compound, periodic all sucks...
Technically chemistry sucks, ok time to slp, and I hope all ppl get like F for chemistry -_- so I won't kena marah by my mother, provided I still have the chance....most likely by that time I am like...[Space]Imagine[PLS]

Exams

Exam coming soon, I know this time I can't go far because I barely even touched my books.

I am keen to get like 8-9As but just don't expect too much as higher the desire, greater chance I am going to flunk.

Erm, so I really hope everyone can enjoy this exam, take it as an enjoyment as this is a last year...don't go emo like leannard(ZL)

and watch this awesome vid made by dray86, hope 1 day I can edit as good as him.


by the way, im going to change the layout of my blog after exam using adobe dreamweaver, since many of you say my layout really sux...so hold your breathe it will be a big bam next time =) adobe dreamweaver~

Now I got myself a blog!!

Had this blog for 3 years, now decided to tweak a lil....
Done this blog a few moments ago, no new post or anything but still stay tune k? xD
and erm haven't patch up few things, but still this blog is viewable =)
Btw, I actually linked our school website on top of the navigation bar, although our school's website really sux, without any updates and no commitments , so.....
Who ever is the admin , look at this

360 degrees changes of my school's life

3/1/2008 I went back to school again, reluctance, excitement, anxiety to meet my old good friends-Gan Beng Tat and Tan Kai Jie ( Kim kia ). I'm glad they passed their PMR with rather good results, it was quite a shock that Ah Beng got 6A's!!! Normally he just sleep in class, flunked
badly in class - with me.

1st day at the school is quite ''OK'', chatted with friends and finding out what I missed out during these 2 frigging months. However, when assembly its torturing me... My headmaster was so long-winded keep on talking the same thing, repeating the same thing which other teacher had stated earlier. Then, I found out my class teacher is Pn. Goh, the fantastic teacher who inclined to tell more story while teaching. Unfortunately, I don't have the opportunity to know this teacher better...Classes will be re-arrange in 2 days time * Sob * . Pn. Goh explained so many meaningful matters to us for only 2-periods. She said choose your stream according to your own will, don't follow your friends. She also told us if you got 10,11,12A's in your SPM and successfully acceded a noble profession, you also need to find a company to take a job right?People who gave wages to these professional is normally students who failed badly in their exams. Those students can think out of the box, instead studying like a bookworm. Well, that influenced me and I had a strong feeling for going art class. Frankly, I am only interested towards computer only. So, next time if I could strive at SPM, I will take a course call biotechnology which included study of cells and using a computer to modify the cells.

Not only that, this year all students will get free text books. Government sponsored all schools in the name of ''lessen students, parents, families' problems''. I am so curious that our government every year loss more money then earning, how they ''pop out'' so much money. Oh...because pilihan raya is coming, to win people's hearts,to win people's trusts, but most importantly to win people's VOTES. Every year produce a marvelous referendum, every year give excuses like lacking of budgets,times,workers and so much on. Opps! Lets not talk about government, later kena caught under the ISO. ( Pissh, scary )

Today is Saturday and suppose I should attend school for gotong-royong, but here I am, writing blogs. Actually I'm sick, so I decided not to go...30% also not willing to go. Well I am looking forward for Happy CNY!!!

Final Decision...

What a simple word!
Loss

Loss
A hunter steals your soul
A guide tour around the trough

Loss
An emotion leads depression
An operation freeze attention
(Experience)
Loss
Your angel leaves you alone
Your devil occupy your room

Loss
What a subtle word

Yet past 2 years I had made a great mistake that I installed my first online game - A3( Is a MMORPG)
2nd game I downloaded was Gunbound ( A shooting strategy game)
3rd game I downloaded was MapleStory ( 2D-MMORPG)
4th game - o2jam
5th game - Gunz online
6th game - Pirate King online
7th game - Rakion

I believed this is not the only games I played, for now, I must put this to an end. I just reinstalled every single game.

The concept of MapleStory is really good. I love the 2D atmosphere and the oldschool leveling system. They should add content to help people past level 30 to keep playing and leveling faster (as at high levels, the leveling time required is ridiculous). The feel of being a really high leveled character is also amazing and it can be addictive. But that's what MapleStory is: an addiction. Not a fun addiction, just an addiction. If you have a fairly poor computer and have a ton of time on your hands that you need to kill, then maybe MapleStory is for you. On the other hand if you don't have all the time in the world to spare and really don't like wasting your time with leveling, this isn't for you. Maplestory K I L L S your time.

Regarding PMR results.

Hello all...I am Yong Sze Khai from SMJK Kwang Hua, 3D. 27/12/07 was the day PMR results released and that was the day I conceded that my distort impression for the life of schooling is totally out, and for that I meant TOTALLY.

I always thought that school's life - no big deal man. Wake up - study - recess - home. Sometimes I even thought of school is a despotic system of indoctrination designed to crush students' spirits and stamp on our creativity.

That day, with a heart stuffed with anxiety and nervousness I went to get my result. Out of my expectation, I got 8A's straight. My friends were congratulating me and some of them clinged to more jealousy and started to assailing me, however I didn't put that on my mind, I know they were joking. Yes, that guy is Lim Cher Ann. Ambience on that day is full with laughter, I can't stop chatting with my best friends, and sharing our joys together for all these years.

And then, I saw this touching moment. Frankly, he is one of my friend and I don't want to mention his name - Anonymous ok ? I saw him sobbing around the corner of the toilets. It was quite ambiguous...is it too happy that his effort finally get paid? Or is the sorrow because failed to get his desired results?

Glancing him, I stood up and asked him why did he feeling so sad whilst friends is celebrating together and planning for their routine for the rest of the day.

He admitted that he got only 5A's. He rubbed his eyes and swiped the tear flowing down from his redish eyes along his cheek to his chin. He was overhelmed for his results, he was a moderate student without any great achievements in the past. Now, he suceed to get 5A's which almost look impossible for him. I congratulated him and told him to join us to CyberCafe(The best way for relaxation is nothing more then going cybercafe with friends).

I'm so happy for him, he was a friend on mine from standard 2. It was really great that he get something what he deserved. His determination and presistency also reminded me that school is the best place to prove yourself. As for who is him, I won't leak out ^^. All I can say is, he is from 3H.



written by ME at 28/12/2007 11.51PM